I know that you love me boy (:

Shup non-illiterate people!


I'm blogging from my bed AGAIN cause it's 7 in the morning on a public holiday and I'm awake /: meh. I actually typed a super long blog post, but the. I accidently x-ed it without saving -.- WHO KNEW IT DIDNT HAVE AUTO SAVE!


Well I'm too lazy to recreate the blog post so I'm just gonna go straight to the chase.


You know how every morning my feelings are very unstable and any song I wake up to will define the rest of my day?
Well of course you don't, I'm telling you now (:


So this morning, I woke up to this chinese song my church friend introduced to me (: well I barely listen to Chinese songs so I thought I'd give it a try (: since the only Chinese songs in my library are Jay Chou's and soundtracks from Cape No. 7 (:



Gosh Cape No.7 is like soooooooo awesome? Of course if you watch it for the first time you won't get it /: it's confusing /: you have to watch it over and over again to understand (:


I cried at like the 4th time I watched the show? Yeah..


Anyways! This Chinese song I woke up to is like superrrrrr emo /: I cried when I listened closely to the lyrics ): cause it reminded me of someone that was gonna leave me soon ):


Part of The lyrics goes :
你让我自由 我很感激
星期六深夜
永远不会有任何人 能代替你

CHINESE NON-ILLITERATES! I urge you to read the last sentence (:


Of course it's not touching enough cause it's in blog form -.- but if you listen to the song, the tone and everything, it's wayyyy different (:



Whoah /: this post turned out much more different than my previous one /: HEH! (: shows how much I can crap (: whee!





Aww.. Now I feel all emo again thinking of that someone who was gonna leave ): sniff..


This will probably describe my Saturday nights after you leave )':


I still don't know how am I gonna face everything else without you by my side ): but I know you have to go, it's inevitable.. Just know that, I'll never forget you (':

We gon' light it upp, like it's dynamite (:

Heylo!

So today I went to school to help out for the SPM bible knowledge quiz thingy that was held in my school and I had the most interesting conversation ever. This took place near the bookshop, below the toilet (: you CHS people know what I'm talking bout (:


Me : -approaches this group of giggling girls- do you want me to show you the way to the girls toilet?

Them : oh no, we just went (:

Me : but that's the boy's toilet..

Them : oh no, we went to the second floor one (:

Me : but that's also the boys toilet... ._________.

Them : oh.. So.. That.. Was...

Me : -nods-..

Them : oh.. Umm.. Nice meeting you /:

Me : -awkward waves-




And the worse part was! They saw urinals, and they STILL went in /:

I'm forever yours, faithfully (':

Somehow that song manages to bring tears to my eyes /: bear with me people /: I'm feeling terribly deep in thoughts today ): and that's baaaaaaaaad! Cause cause what if I drown in em D: eu eu eu eu eu kwek kwek ( pacman sounds ) xD



Yes, I haven't been blogging since the day they discovered fire causeeeee heh. I was lazy /: well! Not ENTIRELYY cause I've also been busy ): uhh let's not relive those horrific moments please (: shoo shoo (:



And sorry if this post is extremely boring, not to say that my others were not, but I'm blogging with my phone (: so yeah. Reason?

• I found it's more comfortable blogging in bed than on a 4 legged wooden object that happens to be the combination of chest hair.

• My papi iz going Vietnam tomorrow sho! He packed up his lappy and left me with his self-proclaimed super canggih netbook. Super canggih? Pfft. That piece of junk is anything but. I bet if you gave the cavemen a netbook, they'd be more interested in ramming their skulls against each other thus causing a volcanic erruption (: OF BRAINSSS wheeeeee! What joy (:

• I've never used a phone to blog before! Whee!

Oops I strayed from the point /:



Lately I haven't been even writing my diary, like 3 weeks or so /: for those who know me, that's a big wow /: for those who don't then I have a series of questions to ask you such as, what the hell are you doing in my blog? Who are you and what did you eat for breakfast?


Oh right! Main reason for this post (:


I decided to release my thoughts on this blank yellow screen so I can sleep peacefully and let you people who read my blog drown in your own tears of boredom (:


Lately I've been thinking a lot about my past, all that I've done and all that I've failed to do. Such as going on a diet.


I've really thought hard of my past relationships and what they meant to me. And no, the 's' in relationships does not indicate that I had 965837865 boyfriends and or girlfriends.


Then came along this girl, a girl no younger than 14 of age. Well not really, I just came across her facebook profile and started to wander round like a stalker. Then I realized she is, still is, in a relationship. What struck me was that het relationship reminded me a lot of my own personal experience /:


I thought about it long and hard how I felt then, so young and innocent, my first love. I thought about how immature I was, how gullible and naive. Tsk.. Good times (':


Then I thought about the present me, how much I've grown. Not in height. Shuddup -.- but in decision making, in my spiritual life, in probably every aspect that I've never been able to cope 3 years ago. I think back, and I look at myself now. I smile, I'm pleased of what I become (: not to be perasan or anything but yeah.


Now I no longer live in the past. I no longer linger in memories that are unrefundable. I want to try new things, meet new people, and thanks to you, I have (:


I have to admit, those relationships were based on one thing and one thing only, puppy love.


I know I'm just 16, but I already feel my biological clock ticking away. As scary as this sounds but, I no longer crave for lovey dovey relationships, I want something real, mature and well-thought through. A supporting relationship (: -sighh- ): I know, I sound sooo not me right now /: gah this feels weird /:


No one would ever want a senile person like me (: so I should probably start naming my cats