Pitter Patter

loving my pink rain boots ♥

So lately the weather has been shit. And it's always extremely horrible especially when I have to go out. The winds are at 137682314823 mph and it rains so your whole body gets wet despite carrying an umbrella (an umbrella is close to useless in this weather). When you're curled up at home, all you hear is the howling wind huffing and puffing on the windows as though if they were trying to break in. And the branches that hit against the side of the house? Don't get me started. They sound so scary! Especially when no one's at home :S The weather really gives you the feel that nature really wants to blow your house to the ground :( 

On Saturday I had to go out and the weather was so terrible, I contemplated on calling a cab instead. But my host told me not to be such a wuss, put on my rain boots and face the weather like a man. A bit harsh, and inappropriate because I clearly am not a man, duh see what I did there, but well, worth a try! So I went out and.. before I got to the bus stop, my umbrella broke. And my hood was absolutely useless so I just swore and cursed my way to shelter. Even in the shelter (bus stop) I was still getting wet because the winds were really strong.

I arrived at my destination being drenched. Head to toe. Oh except my toes cause I was wearing rain boots (yay). My hair was in a mess, I was shivering and my face screamed homicide. 

I was really upset. Knowing that I have to go through another 5 years of this crap weather, and probably more severe in Scotland. And also cause my umbrella broke. (It was one of those automatic ones and I really loved it :( ) So yes. I have learnt my lesson. ALWAYS BE PREPARED. And.. to be less glum! I mean, I can't do anything about the crap weather, better just brace it I guess!

So today, the weather was worse than Saturday :/ Almost every form of transport was delayed due to the horrible weather. But thankfully I spent most my time at home. Warm and cozy :3 Until I had to go out. And decided to dress up a little since it was dinner with friends I haven't seen in a while (': And I was in a dressy mood. And yes! I learnt my lesson. To always wear head protection (well kinda). Sadly. I didn't think about my dress. And yes. On a windy day, it really isn't the most well thought of plan to say the least.. Unfortunately this wasn't the dumbest decision I've made in 2013, sad to say.

And also! I decided to use the umbrella my hostess gave me for my birthday last year :3

I really seldom use this because the rain just kinda drips down on my legs and feet. Which kinda defeats the purpose of staying dry under the umbrella. But hey, this is England. You're sure to get wet no matter how hard you try :/ And plus! This umbrella is designed in such a way that it would never "flip!"
So yay! Oh and it's also a kid's umbrella. So it was pretty tiny.

It's been a long unproductive night! Merry Christmas my little pumpkins ♥♥♥

Late night thoughts

People tell me I always look down on myself, underestimate myself. And it's not just recently too. It's been going on now, for a couple of years at least and I can honestly say it has ruined one too many relationships between people I truly care about. I mean sometimes it really can't be helped. When I'm around people who are far superior to me, I'd tend to down-play myself by a bit (or maybe a lot).  I also realised the people who I spend my time with either can make or break my confidence.

But you know what, that's just an excuse. It's just a lie I tell myself so I feel the need to not change and remain the same. Change is scary for me, it is scary for everyone, but it is crucial if I want to be a better person. So from now on, I shall no longer push the blame to anyone else. Self confidence comes from within and I cannot keep relying on people to tell me I'm good at this and that. Having a low self esteem upsets me but most importantly it drives away the people closest to me, people who I confide in. 

I recognise for a fact that I am not an entirely useless person (I'm not that bad :S). I do have my strengths and my weaknesses. I am motivated, passionate and determined that someday I will be able to do great things. It may not be something as great as saving the world or finding a cure to cancer, but it will definitely be worth while. I will someday be a vet, and I will change lives, even if it is one animal at a time. It will take a lot of blood, sweat and tears to get to where I want to be, but I am confident, with the grace of God, I will pull through. 

And for now I just wish to tell my fellow readers and friends that change does not happen overnight. If you have a friend who has a really low self esteem, do not give up on them. Do not dismiss them even if you think their negativity is annoying. Sometimes people need a little encouragement and most importantly, someone to support and cheer them on in life to make them a better person.

Autumn post

Hello beautiful internet people! Just a short update before I go to bed and get ready for a hectic Thursday as usual @_@ Thursday is the day I have all my subjects :( And all of them except Maths are double period. So I usually get really tired by the end of the day because I don't get breaks in between :( And tomorrow I'm gonna watch my host's kid play in some theatre :3 BUT Friday I have a chem test. OH THE HORROR D':

ANYWAYS! For you people reading this that have Instagram, you know how girls are with their OOTD and POTD and stuff. And being a girl myself, (yes I have been tested), I would like to follow in with the trend :D Why?

1. I find it assuring when people like your OOTD. It means that you are not a walking fashion disaster, and that you know the basics of putting clothes on your body that will not make you look like a giant parrot. Unless you're dressing up as a giant parrot.

2. If you're going out to a place you might never bump into someone you know that will acknowledge your "OOTD", its best if you put it on Instagram so everyone will see how adorable you look

3. OR If you go somewhere and no one acknowledges what you're wearing, at least you have the comfort of your fellow followers that tell you "I LIKE THIS"

SO BASICALLY, Instagram is there for some sort of a confidence boost. With that being said, I always find myself being insecure of how I look and dress, and in need of that "confidence boost". But SINCE, I dedicated my Insta to a my journey onto becoming a vet plus I have stopped using Facebook and Twitter for personal reasons, I shall post my thoughts, selfies and photos on my blogs! (Blogger and Tumblr) :3

HEHE! So today I only had one class at 3.30, but I had to be present for Tutor Period at 12, so I woke up late, took my time, (dressed up a little hehe) and headed to college :3

YUP! A summer dress in a 5 degree weather, PERFECT. But it was sunny! And I have been working hard and having good days lately :)) So I decided to "treat" myself to a little girly makeover :3

I know I'm a bit awkward when it comes to taking photos of my hair ._. I cannot STRESS how much I love ribbons ^_^

This was after I came home from college :) I went to town to run some errands and surprisingly I wasn't cold at all! I was wearing 2 thin layers with a jacket and a scarf and I didn't feel the cold at all ._. WHOO! 

I feel pretty happy today :)) Cause every time I try to look good for college, I leave the house feeling like a superstar but I come home looking like a hobo. Thanks to England's beautiful rainy weather and strong winds.

 That's it from me today! Decided this blog needs more positivity than just rants and complaints all day :/

Goodnight my lovelies!

A view from my college :) Sometimes the everyday climb up Water Tower Hill is worth the beautiful view (provided it's not raining/ windy/ extremely slippery to get up the hill -- which is 95% of the time)

Happy Halloween!

So for Halloween last year, I was at a farm ._. Being warm and snuggly with big hound dogs on my lap :) This year I wasn't so fortunate :( My initial plan for Halloween was to finish studying photosynthesis and trigonometric integration. THAT WAS THE PLAN.

Until my host told me she was gonna have a party, and I couldn't be in my pyjamas for a party ._. So I decided to put on a black shirt and skirt and go downstairs, dressed up as a..

Teenager.

HOW AM I A TEENAGER? Well, for starters, the colour of my clothes represents the dark vast emptiness of my soul, andddd I have zits. AND DON'T THEY LOOK JUST REAL?!

But well the kids said no way were they going treat or treating with me in a lousy costume. So.. I had to put on my last year's costume and go out with em ._.

My dino onesie 

Sorry :/ No full-body photo cause I was in a rush and just wanted to show you guys how red my cheeks were!

I think the only reason I love Halloween is cause I can go out with too much blush on and people would think it's "part of the costume". 

SURREEEE, part of the costume..

I wished everyday was Halloween so I wouldn't be too embarrassed if I wore too much blush :(

 And I got to put my little red ribbon on! YAY FOR HALLOWEEN!


And also I got to help with the Halloween makeup for the kids! TADA! My masterpiece! And yea I only did one cause the boys kinda sorted themselves out ._.

Ugh I love love love rosy cheeks :3 Too bad it's not "socially acceptable" to wear too much blush :( Better selfie while I can!

That's all from me! Tata my lovelies!

Bristol getaway!

So much for a getaway, we were caught in the eye of the storm.

So yea. Wasn't the BEST time to go traveling -__- Part of me wished I could just stay home, drink green tea and study all day. But well. I was already on the bus to Bristol when I read the news so *shrugs* 

I arrived on Sunday afternoon, Bryan picked me up, and we went to eat McDs! (inner child goes yay) At night we ordered a takeaway and watched Movie 43. Retarded but hilarious :3 But then again, I have pretty low standards when it comes to movies so meh.

p/s: Okay I'm starting to get hungry, so I'm gonna let the pictures illustrate my trip

pp/s: Oh and also, these photos are chronologically in order, so you can see how PMS-y the weather was on Monday -__-

ppp/s: Oh and sorry for the crooked/tilted/slanted photos. I'm horrible when it comes to taking photos :( My photo-taking skills are bad, and I should feel bad :(

Brunch at Wetherspoons

Bristol museum! (Shelter from the storm)

Badass Ichthyosaur display

Nothosaurus fossil and places to charge your phone. Just kidding, thats not a Nothosaurus

More badass Ichthyosaur displays

Dinosaur bones + failed selfie

Stuffed dead bats

Hi Mr Giraffe, we meet again!

One of University of Bristol's buildings 

Still, University of Bristol's buildings

What a beautiful view :) (Sadly my photo is slanted, YET AGAIN)

Panaroma view of College Green

Then the weather started getting shitty again

AND THEN IT WAS FINE AGAIN!

Then it got shitty again. So we ran for shelter in a cafe :/

And then it got better! Rainbow :))

I love autumn!

AAAAAND, after then the weather got shitty again, so I stopped taking photos

AND THAT'S ALL FOLKS :) Just glad to be home in Croydon safe and sound now.

This trip's plush buddy was..... Taco! :) I'm glad he's still white (not being racist)

When I first arrived in Bristol, I thought, THANK GOD I DIDN'T APPLY TO UNIVERSITY OF BRISTOL! But after a day or two walking round, I finally reached the verdict, I don't regret not applying to University of Bristol.

Sure, the town wasn't as dead as I thought it would be, and I could potentially see a lot of places I'd be spending my time at (i.e Bristol museum :3) but the thing that put me off the most, was the cost of transport in Bristol. Buses were confusing, irregular and dead expensive, costing £2.90 for a single journey and £4.00 for a day travel pass, BUT they were super comfortable and clean. Still, pros do not outweigh the cons. And no way in hell am I cycling in the winter. 

Half term yay (not)

So half term began on Friday! And what a way to end the term yo! Though it was just like well. half. of it. hence, half term. NEVERMIND. I had a really awesome week, mainly because my test scores were amazing (bragging sorry). Maybe the pre-holiday mood makes me work harder :3 And I really feel happy ending the term (half) on a good note :) Considering my tests last week were shit.


Half term is for a week so yaay, and I'm visiting Bryan tomorrow in Bristol so double yay! But still keeping in mind I have mock interviews to prepare for and Nottingham's questionnaire to do (they finally sent it to me yay!)(was beginning to think they forgot ._.)


Funny little thing happened yesterday when I was taking the cab home. My cab driver happened to be the same cab driver from 3/4 months ago! The one who had problems with his wife and the one I gave cookies too hehe! I love bumping into people I've met before :3 And he still remembered me (yay) and he even said every time he drove past my house he would always remember the cookie girl. Yes he referred to me as the cookie girl :3 That's such a cute nickname! I was really really happy last night :)


Tonight was a bit of a rough night though :( I realised, I'm always assuming that someone else has to be the conversation starter. I always wait on someone else to make the first move, but, why don't I check up on my friends as often as they would check up on me. Why can't I be the initiator? What's wrong with that? I don't lose a limb do I. I'm only gonna end up driving away the people who I really care about and who care about me.

I really hope this horrible attitude of mine will change



In the mean time, I just wanna extend a big blogger hug to my friends who read my blog :) It shows that you haven't totally given up on me, or you're just being nosey hehe jk. Thank you for listening to my complaints and my "life eureka moments". It really makes my day when people tell me they read my blog ^_^ Makes me feel less lonely when I'm talking to myself on the internet :)

Royal Veterinary College Late event

Hi! So on Thursday night, Rose and I attended an event organised by the Royal Veterinary College of London, one of the universities both of us are applying to. It started round 6.45 and it lasted till 10 at night. There were so many animals! (dead ones of course). So you could have said we had a wild night out.

Okay nevermind. So we arrived at RVC and we were just crazy amazed with everything that's going on. Here're some pictures!

WARNING SOME PICTURES MIGHT BE GRUESOME FOR THE FAINT HEARTED

A table of hearts and part of the lungs from different species ; Rabbit, cat, dog, cow, sheep and 2 horses

Size comparison ; Rose's hand and the heart of a rabbit

We even got to touch em and hold em!

 Then we also got to properly inspect a.. more bloody and less preserved cow's heart :)

Yup, just me casually sticking my hand in a artificial cow's ass

This is a haptic cow simulator. Basically you put your hand in this machine thingy, and it lets you feel the insides of a cow, virtually of course. And you could feel for it's aorta, uterus and so on! It was pretty cool :3 It was designed to teach vet students how to tell whether a cow is pregnant or not, which I think is really clever! 

Me being overly excited standing next to an elephant skeleton

Then we got to check out their anatomy museum, which was HUGE! And it had so many different species in it, so it was super exciting!

The fox says nothing, cause it's dead.

There were some cool skeletons

Giraffe skull!

And some pretty freaky ones

Rhesus monkey skeleton (Monkey skeletons look so creepy)

A model showing the spine of a cat

Last but not least, Rose and I! :)

It was a super eventful night! Even though I got home pretty late and my feet were sore and I had to study for a chemistry test, ALL WAS GOOD :))) I had loads of fun walking round asking questions, checking out different booths and talking to RVC students! It made me even more certain that Veterinary Medicine was the right course for me. It would be really a dream come true if I got picked to study here (':

After a long day, FINALLY IN MY PJS! :))

The whiteboard

So recently I bought myself a whiteboard, and let me tell you something about my whiteboard. It is truly remarkable.

buh dum tsk

ANYWAYS! I got it cause ONE, it was on sale (remind me never to walk into a stationery shop with no intention of buying anything)(because I WILL buy something). And TWO, so I could save on sticky notes trying to do this all the time

This was my crazy no-sleep night while studying for bio and econs mock

And now! I can do this :D

See what a buy this is! :) but to be honest. Most the time my board would end up being like this 

So.. I guess you could say I bought myself a doodling board?