Somehow that song manages to bring tears to my eyes /: bear with me people /: I'm feeling terribly deep in thoughts today ): and that's baaaaaaaaad! Cause cause what if I drown in em D: eu eu eu eu eu kwek kwek ( pacman sounds ) xD
Yes, I haven't been blogging since the day they discovered fire causeeeee heh. I was lazy /: well! Not ENTIRELYY cause I've also been busy ): uhh let's not relive those horrific moments please (: shoo shoo (:
And sorry if this post is extremely boring, not to say that my others were not, but I'm blogging with my phone (: so yeah. Reason?
• I found it's more comfortable blogging in bed than on a 4 legged wooden object that happens to be the combination of chest hair.
• My papi iz going Vietnam tomorrow sho! He packed up his lappy and left me with his self-proclaimed super canggih netbook. Super canggih? Pfft. That piece of junk is anything but. I bet if you gave the cavemen a netbook, they'd be more interested in ramming their skulls against each other thus causing a volcanic erruption (: OF BRAINSSS wheeeeee! What joy (:
• I've never used a phone to blog before! Whee!
Oops I strayed from the point /:
Lately I haven't been even writing my diary, like 3 weeks or so /: for those who know me, that's a big wow /: for those who don't then I have a series of questions to ask you such as, what the hell are you doing in my blog? Who are you and what did you eat for breakfast?
Oh right! Main reason for this post (:
I decided to release my thoughts on this blank yellow screen so I can sleep peacefully and let you people who read my blog drown in your own tears of boredom (:
Lately I've been thinking a lot about my past, all that I've done and all that I've failed to do. Such as going on a diet.
I've really thought hard of my past relationships and what they meant to me. And no, the 's' in relationships does not indicate that I had 965837865 boyfriends and or girlfriends.
Then came along this girl, a girl no younger than 14 of age. Well not really, I just came across her facebook profile and started to wander round like a stalker. Then I realized she is, still is, in a relationship. What struck me was that het relationship reminded me a lot of my own personal experience /:
I thought about it long and hard how I felt then, so young and innocent, my first love. I thought about how immature I was, how gullible and naive. Tsk.. Good times (':
Then I thought about the present me, how much I've grown. Not in height. Shuddup -.- but in decision making, in my spiritual life, in probably every aspect that I've never been able to cope 3 years ago. I think back, and I look at myself now. I smile, I'm pleased of what I become (: not to be perasan or anything but yeah.
Now I no longer live in the past. I no longer linger in memories that are unrefundable. I want to try new things, meet new people, and thanks to you, I have (:
I have to admit, those relationships were based on one thing and one thing only, puppy love.
I know I'm just 16, but I already feel my biological clock ticking away. As scary as this sounds but, I no longer crave for lovey dovey relationships, I want something real, mature and well-thought through. A supporting relationship (: -sighh- ): I know, I sound sooo not me right now /: gah this feels weird /:
No one would ever want a senile person like me (: so I should probably start naming my cats
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